You know that feeling you get when you want to breathe, but you can’t? And then when you finally do breathe it feels like someone’s been sitting on your chest all day? Yeah, me either. I say this only because – well, I’m finally breaking into modeling. More through acting. I was going to hold this post back for a while, but seeing as how I officially signed a contract with Top Casting USA. I couldn’t wait anymore. They mainly focus on casting with shows like 30 Rock, Glee, Madmen, CSI: Miami, 90210, Gossip Girl and ad campaigns like AXE, Nair, Pizza Hut, and Rocawear. As well they cast models/actors for several music video. Like today, I auditioned for the main lead in a Jason Derulo music video. I doubt I’ll get the part seeing as how I don’t have a rocking hot bod and intense green eyes. But at least I can say I tried.
Tomorrow, I’ll be going to take some photos to fill up my portfolio. I’m extremely nervous about that. And the casting agency is actually happy that I’ve been working out a lot. So kudos to me. So now, on top of university work, working out, and auditions as well as still job hunting to have something to fall back on – I realize I’m going to be extremely busy. Am I prepared to be busy? Not really. That’s where that ‘feeling’ comes in. I’m actually a bit scared to start to become this busy with life. Like, I’m not a social butterfly (more like a slug) but it took me a while to even build up a social life and here I am about to put it on pause. It doesn’t seem that bad, and really it isn’t when I think about it. It’s not like I’m in a relationship anymore. (Yup, my boyfriend dumped me. For MMA.) So really, I can devote all of my time into me now. But I feel like I shouldn’t abandon my social life all together.
I may seem like I party-hardy a lot but really since I moved to D.C, I’ve only been to 2 clubs and a total of 5 parties. Not all close together either. And I’ve been in D.C since April. I’m not really a party box. I’d rather sit at home, crank up the tunes maaaaan and be on tumblr – reblogging photos of people who ARE having fun.
Meh, me and my dilemmas. I’m just going to have to take a DEEP breath and just relax and let everything flow into place. University, Auditions, Job hunting, Exercise, Social Life and Family Time. Let the natural order of it all fall.
In an non-related note – I recently made a video. And I’m contemplating on making this a series (you know, to help me overcome my camera shyness not to be a camwhore. /snort Totally.) I call it – What The Vlog. For those unaware of what a vlog is, it is short for video-blogging. Where you do the same thing as a blog expect in video form. Yeah, that is Dei’s short version of it.
The What The Vlog series will probably be me talking (and probably ranting) about some random subject. No two subjects will be a like I hope. So I’m definitely open to suggestions.
P.S. I hate my voice. I don’t care if I hear it everyday when I talk. Recording it then hearing it sounds so friggin’ weird.
AND I MAKE WEIRD FACES.
I’ll make another post in 2-3 days. See you guys then.