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You know that feeling you get when you want to breathe, but you can’t? And then when you finally do breathe it feels like someone’s been sitting on your chest all day? Yeah, me either. I say this only because – well, I’m finally breaking into modeling. :D More through acting. I was going to hold this post back for a while, but seeing as how I officially signed a contract with Top Casting USA. I couldn’t wait anymore.  They mainly focus on casting with shows like 30 Rock, Glee, Madmen, CSI: Miami, 90210, Gossip Girl and ad campaigns like AXE, Nair, Pizza Hut, and Rocawear. As well they cast models/actors for several music video. Like today, I auditioned for the main lead in a Jason Derulo music video. I doubt I’ll get the part seeing as how I don’t have a rocking hot bod and intense green eyes. But at least I can say I tried.

Tomorrow, I’ll be going to take some photos to fill up my portfolio. I’m extremely nervous about that. And the casting agency is actually happy that I’ve been working out a lot. So kudos to me. So now, on top of university work, working out, and auditions as well as still job hunting to have something to fall back on – I realize I’m going to be extremely busy.  Am I prepared to be busy? Not really. That’s where that ‘feeling’ comes in. I’m actually a bit scared to start to become this busy with life. Like, I’m not a social butterfly (more like a slug) but it took me a while to even build up a social life and here I am about to put it on pause. It doesn’t seem that bad, and really it isn’t when I think about it. It’s not like I’m in a relationship anymore. (Yup, my boyfriend dumped me. For MMA.)  So really, I can devote all of my time into me now. But I feel like I shouldn’t abandon my social life all together.

I may seem like I party-hardy a lot but really since I moved to D.C, I’ve only been to 2 clubs and a total of 5 parties. Not all close together either. And I’ve been in D.C since April. I’m not really a party box. I’d rather sit at home, crank up the tunes maaaaan and be on tumblr – reblogging photos of people who ARE having fun.

Meh, me and my dilemmas. I’m just going to have to take a DEEP breath and just relax and let everything flow into place. University, Auditions, Job hunting, Exercise, Social Life and Family Time. Let the natural order of it all fall.

In an non-related note – I recently made a video. And I’m contemplating on making this a series (you know, to help me overcome my camera shyness not to be a camwhore. /snort Totally.)  I call it – What The Vlog. For those unaware of  what a vlog is, it is short for video-blogging. Where you do the same thing as a blog expect in video form. Yeah, that is Dei’s short version of it.

The What The Vlog series will probably be me talking (and probably ranting) about some random subject. No two subjects will be a like I hope. So I’m definitely open to suggestions.

P.S. I hate my voice. I don’t care if I hear it everyday when I talk. Recording it then hearing it sounds so friggin’ weird. AND I MAKE WEIRD FACES.

I’ll make another post in 2-3 days. See you guys then.

14 Comments on I’M BUUUUSSAAY.

  1. Rae
    November 4, 2011 at 5:19 am (2873 days ago)

    Kyaaa~! That’s amazing! I’m so impressed! I want to see you in a some sort of music video or tv series. Gosh, that’s so cool!

    I think you can manage all this stuff better than you think. Being busy let’s you stay out of the bored realm. ^^
    Good luck and best wishes for everything! You are really photogenic judging from your photos. hehe

    & thanks. The advice you’ve given is one of best I’ve heard. :) I’ll keep it mind.

  2. Jun
    November 4, 2011 at 6:09 pm (2872 days ago)


    You’re incredible. You’re life sounds so freaking EXCITING right now.
    And I like you’re voice…I consider mine, embarrassingly high…or rather not as low as I’d like it to be. I want a german accent before I die. That’s allll I have to saay. 8-D

  3. Yuri
    November 4, 2011 at 6:44 pm (2872 days ago)

    That is soo cool that you are getting into the acting/modeling thing :D Congrats!! I am happy you are doing what you want :] And all those shows are good shows! So that is amazing. And that is even cool that you tried out for the part in Jason Derulo. OMG that is just awesome. Our Dei is going to make it big T^T

    Pshh screw your boyfriend, he doesn’t know what he’s missing out. And like you said now you can focus on yourself. Make yourself even more awesome than before<3

    I would watch the video if my laptop had audio D: The only time I watch YouTube videos is if I go on my sisters' laptop. I won't get a new laptop till December ish. Merry Christmas to me? Lol xD

  4. Iulia Romana Pop
    November 4, 2011 at 7:51 pm (2872 days ago)

    Hello dear :) First of all , I agree with the one who commented above : screw your boyfriend ! :)
    Then, thank you for the lovely comment on my blog – my boots are from New Look and they are really cheap and confortable. Go get your own pair before it will get to snowy to even get out of the house !

  5. tiff
    November 5, 2011 at 2:49 am (2872 days ago)

    Amazing! Congrats on getting agent and/ signing with an agency. I actually pursued acting for two years (now I’m doing other things :P ), so I’m really , really excited for you! I hope you go far! :D

    Yay for vlogs! I’m starting to become more active on Youtube, so I’ll be watching ur videos for sure. Though, are you still going to be updating your blog while you…vlog? Lol.

  6. amano
    November 5, 2011 at 5:01 am (2872 days ago)

    Woah, congrats!
    Well, happy for being single~ Staying single is not bad, ya know! :D
    Today is my birthday. :)
    Isn’t that cute? I like that emotion. XD

  7. Joyce
    November 6, 2011 at 4:38 pm (2870 days ago)

    It’s cool that you’re breaking into modeling now!! Congrats~~ hope you get booked on cool jobs. update us on how that goes :P You look cute in your shower cap hahah. nice to see that you’re doing videos to overcome shyness~

  8. ToVogueOrBust
    November 7, 2011 at 8:35 pm (2869 days ago)

    Good for you on all points – it sounds like you’re really pushing ahead in a ton of different ways, I’m sure you’ll land a ton of jobs! Have a great week love :)

    Alexandra xo


  9. Yuri
    November 8, 2011 at 2:00 am (2869 days ago)

    BTW Dei am tagging you~ details on my blog post :]

  10. Ayel
    November 9, 2011 at 4:38 pm (2867 days ago)

    meee tooooo i’ve beeeeen busssaaayyy!!! and i wanna sleep now. lol.. :)

  11. Astrea
    November 10, 2011 at 1:26 am (2867 days ago)

    OH MY GOD, GASP AND BOUNCE. I am so excited for you. Oh man! Genuinely, congratulations and best of luck.

    I also highly approve of your vlog.

  12. Irene
    November 12, 2011 at 8:49 pm (2864 days ago)

    Yer so cute!

    Good luck with the modeling business x

  13. Nugget
    November 13, 2011 at 2:41 am (2864 days ago)

    Wow, you’re pretty busy with life.

    Good luck with modeling. You’re already beautiful. :)

  14. Lissa
    November 20, 2011 at 7:37 pm (2856 days ago)

    You really got a busy life, I hope you can manage everything well! :) You’re also lucky to do modeling work, I’d love to do some modeling work as well xD You’re lucky you’re so pretty :)

    Love the vlog too btw! ^_^